My New Beginning

New Beginning

~ Hey,

It's been a while since I've written in this blog. I don't even know where to start. It's been 2 years and a lot of things have changed. I have gotten to understand myself a lot more and even changed some of  my behavioural patterns in order to make myself a happier person. I've realised that I really do need to put myself first and take better care of myself. They always say " You must love yourself first in order to love other beings". I definately agree with this saying. Well, i am now in my third year and there have been a lot of good and bad things that have happened during the two years i have been MIA on this blog!
 First off, I have sustained a knee injury. Its actually a knee injury that has gotten worse because I never really took care of it for 5 years and just pushed myself to become a better dancer. I realised that i needed to keep up and try my best to improve as a dancer and I think that mentality got a little of the best of me haha! Added that I have a high pain tolerance, I dont usually feel the pain until I got my examination with the sports medicine doctor. I think the examination had irritated my knee and then when i started to do Physio, it just got even worse. I am usually one whom doesnt complain about my knee pain.... its only when i get home that you will see me on the floor being a baby hahah. So they diagnosed my injury as chondromalacia, which is basically when the cartilidge under the knee cap has all worn out, so there is fluid & the knee cap has gotten soft as a result of the fluid, so the knee cap goes out of place and what not. Hence the explanation for all the times my knee gives way, locks, and swells up. It explains why i cant bend down on my knees haha! Because of this injury, i have to refrain from dance. Dance is a huge part of my life- I've been doing it for 10 years now and its really hard to stop something that you have been doing for pretty much half of your life. At the moment, its really hard to accept that i cannot partake in any dance activities but I know I will for sure accept it later on. It is just that since i was starting third year, i was thinking on improving on my style of Hip-hop and expanding and learning various styles of dance. But since this news came along, I can't do it anymore. As they say, "Life always throws you curve balls, and it is up to you whether or not you catch the ball or dodge it".
On the other hand, having all this time off from dance can be used to spend more time in my studies so I can get better grades in order to be accept for my International Exchange. This is such a huge opportunity that I do not want to take for granted so I am really trying my best to achieve better results in order to get accepted! *Crosses fingers*

Well, this shall be the first part of my new beginning, I shall continue with the second part another time.

~~ <3