Smile.

I wonder why is everything just plummeting into this great dark abyss ? I know, i know, i am way too hard on myself. I wonder when i will stop being like this. If i don't stop im going to get myself sick. I just wish that what is happening right now wouldn't happen at this exact time. Well, they always say, things happen at that exact moment for a purpose. All i can do is keep my head up and try not to worry too much. As of right now .. I try and smile to my friends ( don't get me wrong, im not some majorly depressed person :) im usually happy all the time) but can't help to relapse into sadness again. Other things make me happy, give me tinglies but still the other problem is something that has a big weight on my shoulders. Its a bit too heavy for me now.